It’s not possible.
Get over yourself.
Do the best you can. Leave the rest to God.
Stop trying to emulate somebody else that you think is perfect because they’re not either.
I think that is clear enough, but just in case it wasn’t…. perfection is not an option, grace is. The harder you try to be perfect the less you’ll appreciate the grace of God. The heavier you lean into the grace of God, the more perfect you’ll get.